So many things to say, but where to start. I have been sick for the past three days.....The last two days I haven't been able to much more than get up off of the couch.
I missed posting for Shorty's seventh birthday. Can't believe my little ones are getting so old.
Two days ago, we took our oldest one to Medford to receive his endowment. Can't believe my oldest one is old enough to do that! We only have about six weeks before he leaves for Brazil.
Though I struggled to stay awake and participate on Wednesday, and slept through yesterday, today I have enough energy to think and ponder, but not enough to get up off of the couch to do much.
I watched General Young Women's meeting this morning. I love watching that meeting because it reminds me that I am a daughter of God, that He loves me, is watching over me and has planned for my success. He knows my heartaches, sorrows, and struggles. He is there. He will listen. He will help and guide, lead and love. It reminds me on such a basic level all of those things that we long to know and feel, but hear so rarely. As President Uchtdorf spoke, I felt my sick soul fill with light. I was strengthened to continue through my personal adversities and to help others with theirs as we move onto our own 'happily ever afters.' (To watch this video, click this link: http://www.lds.org/move/index.html?type=conference&event=april180&lang=english , click the bottom button on the right once, click on the picture of President Dieter F. Uchtdorf. It takes about 20 minutes.)
I called one of my counselors yesterday because her father had a stroke. I just wanted to see how she was doing and if she needed anything. "What I need," she basically said, "is to bring you dinner. There isn't much I can do for my dad right now. But if can bring you dinner and see that my efforts are helping someone, somewhere, it would be very therapeutic for me."
Isn't she soooo right?! I learned a long time ago that an aching heart can be filled when we serve others. What a beautiful blessing. What a paradox. To heal, serve. Interesting. True. In the bleakness of our sorrow, if we will reach in and give out, our aching heart is filled with love and compassion.